oh my me ohmemy...

......here i am again, with no where to post my thots except online....geez there may be no one to read it anywya.......oh well....i realise with a startle hat im still the same ol'me after years of being the same ol' me....horrors of all horrors, some of my thot patterns are still the same'!! scary too....ok.ok. my self esteem needs an overhaul. i m no longer so young u know oh well.......daily sometimes dreaming of God Almighty to whisk me away to a land of everlasting love n peace.......or a pair of strong, handsome arms to lift me into oblivion and dreamy happiness.....haha....wishful thinking. or have a career where i'm in charge....oh what d blah and d blady.........i may be a melancholy with mood swings...i dunno it seems as tho' i'm living on an parallel dimension and i cant break out........anyone ever felt the same way?

cheers to myself....