Frightened of this thing that I've become....

I dont understand myself. AM also MEGA confused about who am i. Sometimes people wish they could turn back time, at least its my strongest desire. Just to keep the records straight. Im not an evil person - infact I'm just totally confused about my identity and my make-up. I'm definitely good (at least i know i have a soft heart). The world is always unfair - sometimes certain people can get away with wrong doing just because they have wealth and power!!!!!! Ok....i admit I'm a mega pessimistic person at times......also worried about my future and where am i heading but its no excuse to do something that will ulitmately hurt so many people especially my beloved parents!!!!!! WHat have i become?????!!!!!!!!**^%$^&$#@!!!!! god, please forgive me - I never meant any harm - all i wanted was to do things my own way....

cheers n not,
me